our life is not a movie or maybe。

METAL GEAR SOLID 4.

COMPLETED.


....;__________________________;


....GUESS THERE'S NOTHING LEFT TO DO NOW BUT KILL MYSELF.

(And now, to shoot for more productivity.)

WHAT AM I DOING AWAKE.

With the 2008 Olympics having ended (or approaching an end, if you answer to the tyrant that is America's programming schedule), I admit what makes me saddest is that the phrase 'GO FOR THE GOLD IN THE BEIJING OLYMPICS' is... never going to come back in fashion. DD: DDD: DDDD8

And that swimming lessons with Lait-o have to be modified for the London Olympics.

( ONE LAST HURRAH. )



4 more days until school. DD: TO THOSE AWAITING MY SCHEDULE &C: really sorry, I'll have it to you today sometime! D: For some reason things are still up in the air, and I'm getting all confused. ...Not that I'm not confused all the time. Comments disabled because I was going to be productive, I REALLY WAS, and make the most of what time I've got left. ;_; Nostalgia-!

OH AND I'M ALMOST DONE WITH MGS4. 8D Screaming Mantis is the only BatB person left to fight, and then it's the main event. The fight with Laughing Octopus was so breathtaking. I got chills.

....NABARI NO OU CH. 50. Did not make me go into a week-long daze like ch. 47 did, but it was sad. But I am optimistic. But it was sad. ..D:

ETA: NO WAIT TOO LAZY TO INCORPORATE IT INTO THE LARGER FIC. It (almost) works well on its own, so why not go for it. XD Excuse the all-atmosphere-no-atmospheric-pressure thing going on. I'm working on it.

APH
Russia/China; Korea, Japan

( small sea story. )

I've kind of been glued to the TV all day watching the Olympics on the Chinese and Korean channels, so in case I can't finish any of the writing &c I was planning to have out today --

HAPPY 8/08/08! :DD GO GO AWESOMENESS.

I've been wanting to make a post for a while, but had nothing awesome+fandom to throw out, so uh, didn't. D: BUT. I want to be a little more present on LJ/online before the month is over and I have school, SO.

For those who wished me a happy birthday -- you're all too lovely. ;___; ♥ Thank you so much--!! It means tons, and was pretty surprising -- I didn't tell anyone, but you were all so thoughtful...!! Thanks for remembering, thank you for being here even though I'm atrociously and relentlessly absent, thank you for everything! 8D

I had some fandom thingums I wanted to have finished by tomorrow, what with the Olympics (that I don't watch, but it's the principle of the thing) beginning, but -- everything I started has been stalled, or is moving at a sluggish pace, because we have some family friends over. And by over, I mean their family of 5 is almost literally living with us. ...D8 Every day, it's playing tour guide, going here or there, touristy things. Sometimes it's fun (last night we had a bonfire and I walked with the kids to the beach to show them the bio-luminescent plankton on the shore, and we wandered through Waimea Valley, then there was a birthday party, then swap-meet, then furniture shopping, then 3 doctor appointments for me that I won't cover because they were traumatizing), but mostly it's just exhausting. I'm kind of tired right now and tonight we have a ghost tour in Honolulu (UGH AGH), and am working on 2 fics and 1 scanlation, so.... that means it's time to slack off. XD

ABC Meme, cont.!

( (slightly outoforder; A, I, L, M. In which I am ridiculously personal and optimistic. )


I hope you're all doing well. :D I have to go get dinner with said family visitors, and then go huddle in fear at Iolani Palace. XD I hope I'll have something journal-worthy out soon.

Hello.

I remember the things I'm supposed to do for people, and I only JUST NOW thank de good lodd have an amazing and stable connection (this thing is so fast I don't know what to do with myself omg ;_;), so I'll get on that. Scanlations, Reborn + Hetalia, meme responses, perhaps an AX report (LATE BUS), and. Yes. :) METAL GEAR SOLID 4 IS SO AWESOME AND HERE I THOUGHT I'D NEVER GET TO PLAY IT/GET A PS3. OH MY GOD. I'M JUST. I want to die and I'm not even halfway through it. It's beautiful. I'm dying to write fic, but there's so much canon to remember that I'm hesitant. D:

And. Yes. I'm glad I feel like writing again, I'm glad that I CAN, wtf. There was no time/opportunity before.

I am nostalgic.

HAVE ALMOST-SMUT. Two partner-fics, both pretty different in content, but still!

Title: Fragment of a Nonexistent Ice Field
Author: This picnicbird fellow.
Rating: R-15
Pairing: Squalo/Dino
Warnings: Slash! Foul language! Sorta-smut-but-not! All this and more. 8D
Summary: Wherein Dino kind of fails at being one of those newfangled 'winner' types, and messes up some things, for better or for worse.

( there was a time when nothing was unlit: )

ONCE UPON A TIME. (A little bit back.) My mother decided we ought to get out of our grandparents' house and stay at a hotel for a night. We did so! That night, I (still full of mucous and germs from this cold I'm only now getting over) woke up with a horrible coughing fit. I got to that point of just gagging and hacking and dashed from my sleeping bag (YES. A SLEEPING BAG.) and to the pitch-black sink area to get some water. I was so half-asleep and desperate from the coughing that I didn't bother to turn on a light, just knocked everything aside to get to the closest cup I could find. I GOT A SHOT OF WATER. I DRANK. And it burned on the way down. *change of tense goes here.*

I immediately go WTF and figure I've been fatally poisoned, so I flip on the light and find the little cup area. It seems I've knocked a coaster off my drinking glass -- it has a mysterious "L" written on it. An identical cup, filled with something, wears a coaster with "R" on it. I look in that cup, and yes, there's a puddle of saline solution, and my mother's right contact lens.

Of course, I look at the cup I've drunk from, and find traces of that slimy solution along with the pitiful amount of water I filled it with. BUT NO CONTACT LENS. Cue me standing in front of my mother's bed in the pitch black wondering how to break it to her. (She was really angry, in case you were wondering. XD)

TL;DR I DRANK A CONTACT LENS. DDD8 And a whole lot of saline solution and spent the rest of the night with my tongue on fire. UGH. NNNNGGKK.

The end.

I'm going back to Hawaii tomorrow! I'm -- happy and sad. I'm exhausted by the constant screaming and go-go-go and obligations to fill here and look forward to having a bed to sleep in for the first time in 3 weeks, but we haven't fully moved into the house back home so it's going to be lots of cleaning, and really uncomfortable. Well. :/

Today I sat off from an immense crowd and tried to ignore the blaring music and wrote in a notebook for a couple hours. Half fic, half original things. The fic was, of course, the Squalo/Dino one, the really difficult part in question -- HOLY CRAP it is like heart attacks. Urgh. Angh.

THE ABC MEME!! 8D 8D There are still letters to be filled! If you have a REALLY AWESOME SUGGESTION and comment with it, I'll cover them in my next post. :D But seriously, thank you for doing this, guys. You made my brain not-rot all the times I had no internet and nothing to do but just -- sit. :D :D

( Por qué no te CALLAS )


I didn't get as far as I would've liked on those, but it's late and I have to pack tomorrow morning and then fly back to Hawaii in the afternoon AUGHHH -- I promise to contain these all in one or two spaces, and not spam you with them. XD GOOD NIGHT, WEST COAST. GOOD NIGHT.

I'm writing a rather long Squalo/Dino, and am almost finished, except I can't get past a not-smut part. It's not even smut! It's nowhere near smut! But I can't write it without heming and hawing and being generally awkward. I might just do the meme first, and then see if it gives me the right dose of distraction from it.


( HOW I DISTRACT MYSELF FROM WRITING, or, MORE WRITING. Lancia-Dino. )

*
( Yamamoto/Gokudera, where I try to make like Stella and get my groove back. )


FLIST, I HAVE A QUESTION:

To the writers and artists out there, fanfiction+fanart or otherwise, what author or artist is your main inspiration? I've been thinking about how dependent the development of my writing style was/is on certain authors, and really wanna know how it is for you all! :D FIRE AWAYYYY.

How has everyone been! D: I feel like it's been ages since I've heard from so many people, and I think it's a summer thing and once we're deep into summer everyone will be settled and returned, but STILL. I miss a lot of people. Come back soon!

Finally in California, living it up (read: not living it up) in Irvine and Laguna, went to AX Friday and Saturday! I met a lot of peopleeeee. 8D ...And didn't get to meet a number of them that I thought I would. AUGH. Well. 8[ Maybe I'll defeat the Must Meet list sometime in the near... ish future.

SEGUE. I'm still really jet-lagged and was in a brand of daze throughout most of AX, so I'm sorry to the lovely, tolerant people who put up with my "uhhhh" and "*SPILLS CHAI LATTE EVERYWHERE*" and sundry. It -- probably won't happen again. Unless I happen to fly from Hawaii to wherever one day before a convention again. XD

Anyhow, I cosplayed kid!Dino and still need to work on the wig and jacket, for serious. ....And Rokujou Miharu cosplay fell through, because Friday night I went back to the room early and spent a number of hours in despair over a wig that just... would not work for Miharu. I'm going to do Miharu for NYAF, along with young!Dino, so hopefully by then I'll have made up for this travesty. :D

BUT. I MET A LOT OF PEOPLE. AND TOOK A (SOMEWHAT) GOOD NUMBER OF PICTURES that ought to be posted here by... late tonight, I think. Until then, have an LJ cut to give awesome people their own space.

( SHOUT OUTS! and then some. :D )

Righto, I should get back to RP and things -- eventually, soon. Ish. Fic-writing precedes that. XD And... relative-visiting even before that. Small amounts of Dino essay-writing come before that.

This can be as fandom-related or non- as you like, SO PLEASE GIVE ME SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT OVER VACATION:

Letters of the Alphabet Meme:

1. It begins with a list of all 26 letters of the alphabet.
2. Comment with something for me to talk about that starts with one of those letters. Make me babble about anything -- TV shows, actors, actresses, food, I don't know, be creative. :D
3. One topic per letter -- it's like a claims list! I will cross off letters as topics appear. (And one letter per person, please!)
4. I will post a new post talking about all 26 topics given to me!

( THE LETTERS IN QUESTION. )

Happy summer. :D

CELL PHONE GET!!!!! 8D 8D

...omg. finally. It was lost in the mail for 3 WEEKS apparently. Thank you guys for putting up with my lack thereof in the meantime!!

Anyway! My cell phone number, again, is 808-428-1410! For all AX goers and otherwise.

Back to packing omgwtf. And then I'll listen to the messages. XD Movers come tomorrow. Ngggkk.

Actually, I'm just anxious to update -- the first day of summer was 21st. It's sometimes a good feeling, sometimes a bad one (for me, bad, because my brain is turning to a big gelatinous amorphous mass and I want to do something). But, it's summer. YOU CAN'T COMPLAIN. BECAUSE. SUMMER JUST IS.

(DON'T LOOK AT MY LAYOUT, IT'S REALLY RIDICULOUSLY RETARDED BUT I'M KEEPING IT ANYWAY BECAUSE IT MAKES ME LAUGH. I did this Russian-user sponsored account thing, where you get 30 icons free if you 'endorse' a Russian company, and apparently along with the 30 icons you get an embarrassing layout, too. I REGRET NOTHING.)

Thank you to whoever it was who gave me constructive criticism, although it was in a septic tank -- actually, thank you for writing it in that septic tank, because your awesome crit made something good come of that event. XD Though I wonder if I haven't said it enough (once more, with feeling), that I'm always open to constructive criticism right here and now -- on the posts where the fic is itself is absolutely amazing -- but anywhere else on my journal, too. PLEASE DO. The crit was really helpful, although I don't agree with the part where the people who like my fics are kids-who-are-easily-impressed-by-fancy-wording (not verbatim). 100% of my flist who friended me to read my fics are the most intelligent, insightful people, and most of them are writers themselves -- the one thing that saves my fics from being OOC, abstract junk-piles is the feedback from the readers, in which you see they delved into the fic and pulled out something wonderful and far transcending that little meager idea you tried awkwardly to express in the fic. It doesn't add up, not when I have proof of my readers' awesomeness. I know better than to try to impress them with my crappy descriptions. ...I have a good flist. Maybe I just wanted to be sappy over all of you. ;__; ilu guys, thank you for sticking with me even when I rarely update.

I HAVE GOOD EXCUSES AS TO WHY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING. ( click here if you really want to know. (You don't. TURN BACK.) )

As of today (still today, it's a kind illusion) I'm writing two short fics, different fandoms, just to keep writing. (Gau/Raikou; Squalo/Dino.) One is hopefully going to be smut (the latter although I PROMISE, drusilla27, THE XANXUS/DINO SMUT FIC WILL BE DONE XD), just because I'm nostalgic about last year's summer and it would be awesome to bring it full-circle by FINALLY writing something a little more graphic than the two vague scenes in TVWETSE. WE'LL SEE. Maybe once I'm in Cali I can finish

UNTIL THEN.

Haru-Haru Interview: Naitou Longchamp!
( ONE WILD AND CRAZY GUY. )


New AIM!: apsarasah.

Abuse at will whenever we're both around. :D

To everyone who'll be at AX, I hope I can get in touch with you on the day of, with a shiny cell phone. D:

I have this -- intense urge to just go about friending everyone I've heard of who's going to AX, everyone I've crossed in communities/RPGs, just so I can make my already hectic and epic time there 47932x more hectic and epic. Q: IS THIS WRONG?

A: No. This is a time of growth and wonderful new experiences that take place within your body.

YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS ALL LIKE -- you'll eventually friend someone who went to this year's AX, but after the fact, and you'll have been two ships passing in the night/realizing YOU MISSED OUT ON MEETING THEM IN A REALLY IDEAL SETTING?? ... Wait, is AX an ideal setting? Or is it an overwhelming sea of humanity. XD

Either way. This would be a good opportunity and so I'm feeling 70% reckless.

I'm waiting for the Miharu wig to come in, until then I have the Dino wig and I'm afraid of this whole take-it-on-the-plane thing. It's a 5 hour plane ride from here to LA, and I've got some people chanting "WEAR IT ON THE PLANE. WEAR IT ON THE PLANE" which would be AWESOME but there are two of them. XD I'm a little worried.

...I'm drawing a blank as to what I should write about. ..OH YEAH. Morgan's Corner is almost the number one most popular haunted place in Hawaii; there are a lot of stories as to why and what happened, some historical and some urban legends, but there is something weird there. BUT. What's kind of awesome and kind of horrible is that... I never knew where it was, until yesterday when I was reading a book that mentioned it. And I found out it's less than 5 minutes from where I live. AUGHHHH so I'm probably going to stop by there today and look at it.

I'm also stopping by Gamestop (!!) and ogling MGS4. I can't buy it, though. ....Seriously, who owns a PS3. WHY AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I want it. D:

This entry was exhausting to write. XD I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY, LW. Clearly I should stick to fandom-only posts from here on.

MAYBE I SHOULD POST THIS BADGE EVERY TIME I WANT TO GREET SOMEONE.

First off, ch. 196: ....Gamma. I just. On one hand, I'm a little wary about this development, because it could easily spiral into a redeeming (the worst word) Tsundere Situation and Gamma is perfectly fine being a coldhearted, bitter, love-lost bastard. But, at the same time... I want to clutch my chest and just -- God, it's like a war romance, it's like A Very Long Engagement, it's -- it's probably not like that at all, but. XD I love Gamma -- somehow, love that drives you to kill, love that is torn from you and driving you into darker depths, it really.... it just hits, right here. What is it about Gamma. He's the one saving grace of this arc.

RL: I'm busy, but. ....I am. So. Lonely. XD I feel really ashamed to say that, and 90% of the time I am completely okay being alone, but... just being here, on this insular rock, it makes you feel so -- sad and empty. Everyone's gone elsewhere, and on a sunny afternoon you're alone poking pitifully at your cat. It's just the location. The timezones, the...
...This post is not about my loneliness or Reborn, though. XD This is a dump of short stuff I've done during my spare time. ...Which is admittedly not in much abundance at the moment.

[1] I scanlated a Baccano website comic, but I uh um can't find the website at the moment -- I promise when I'm not reeling from a lack of sleep I'll edit this post and put up the website address/give due credit. BUT until then, I hope I'm not stepping on any toes posting this...

( an extremely small touch of Baccano in the form of a comic. )

[2] Two ficlets, two different fandoms. Each written under 15 minutes. Theme: self-sabotage. (So hardcore. 8D)

( chronicles of narnia [movie]; Caspian-Peter SHUTUPOKAY. )


( nabari no ou; Yoite/Miharu. )



Not great, but that's what happens.

ETA: Possibly the strangest compliment one could receive is

If I printed out your writing, I'd rub my chest all over it.

....what does that me -- ...thank you. XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, actualize!!! :D HOPE YOU'RE HAVING A TOO-AWESOME DAYYYYY and congratulations. 8D I love you, and seriously can't wait to see you at AX (OMOMGOMG). :D :D ♥ ♥ You'll always be the Mukuro to my Dino.

( absolute sap, be careful, you might get fossilized in it. )
I CAN SCANLATE DOUJINSHI FOR YOU. :D Or! I can write whatever character/dynamic/pairing you want (in fandoms we both know er hahha), because you deserve it. :D Whatever you want, I wanna do.

To hold you over, though, I scanlated a Kokuyou doujinshi, because I almost see no use in giving a fic to such a brilliant writer -- but I have this terrible sneaking suspicion that you might've already... read through this thoroughly one way or another. XD Uh. I hope that's not the case, but if it is, I still identify it with you because it has layers, never mind the slight OOC on Mukuro's part, I think it all works out really well. Though it is a little too angsty for a birthday. But. Um. And -- it's just to hold you over. >( SO!!


Golgotha
Kanegae Shouko
~42 pages
NC-17!!!

( Beware, this is image-heavy. >( )

LOVE YOU, ANNA.

Self notes:
1] I realize I hold my tongue 80% of the time because everything I say is so opinionated and idealistic, way too much, and I don't want to subject people to that.
2] I might have pigmentary glaucoma. D: WHICH MEANS I GO BLIND. I'll be the Blind Swordsman slashing enemies in the countryside; you don't mess with that shit, yo.
3] My past few days have been spent reading poetry and ghost stories.
4] To combat this, expect the freaky HaruHaru Interview with Longchamp sometime soon. AAHH.

GUYS HEY GUYS HEY LOOK AT MY ICON. It's no secret that Toon Link is my favorite in SSBB, and now I can show my love to the world. Yea verily, video games have been taking over my life as they have every vacation, to the point where I began writing Snake/Link the other day, so I'm sorry if my geek factor goes up a couple notches in the ensuing month or so.

I have an optometrist appointment in six hours, so I should be sleeping. After this, er uh um. Thingum.

For dear unlock, HERE YOU GO KARLA, I am so sorry this is so late, but we can consider it... uhhhh a really early birthday present or something, or does that not cut it -- I AM SORRY, I REALLY HOPE THE CONTENT MAKES UP FOR THE. THE FAILURE. Okay, the fic isn't the brightest thing ever, either, but uh. ....Okay, I'm running out of bright sides here. XD

Karla (and all others who dare tread), please enjoy! This time it's only 10,026 words. 8D (As opposed to the shut-up-already long Dino fic, which was. 10,776.)

(Special thanks to actualize, wonderful BEST MUKURO EVER Anna, who gave me some much-needed direction with this fic. As a result, I'm a little more satisfied with it and was able to revamp. EDITING OMG I DID IT thank youuuu, Anna. ;___;b)


Title: Ambush in Reverse
Author: Me llamo Lai.
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Dino/Mukuro, slight Dino/Chrome
Warnings: OOC?! Perhaps. Slight shounen-ai; sliiight AU (what-ifs); EXTREEEME length.
Word count: 10,026 (!!)
Summary: That pocket of time between Tsuna's disappearance from the present and those ten years later was actually more like one of those glacial caverns that Mukuro had learned to navigate and Dino needed to get the hang of. But of course, everyone loses their footing every once in a whole -- even Mukuro. Cue a roundabout way of asking for help.

( it's the nature of the experiment. )

The fic is almost finished, yessss. I'm going to be alternately enraged at and proud of myself when I finally post it. XD

Today is (still is here) Memorial Day, and after errands/shopping/dinner, I and my mother and sister went to see the lantern floating festival at the beach in Honolulu.

( a story. )

This took longer than I expected. AUGH SCANNAR. AUGH OLD PC IT'S STILL HOOKED UP TO. AUGH PRIVATE ANGUISH. You get to see the shiny outcome of my efforts, though. 8D Which may or may not be good for you.

I have to go in a bit to the midnight premiere of the new Indiana Jones movie SHUT UP I'M A GEEK FOR MOVIE OPENINGS/GEEKY EVENTS. I hope to God there's an Indiana Jones cosplayer (or 12) there. I'll probably have to ask them where they get their whips ahahahhhh. D: Anyway, I've been going to sleep around 9:30 PM every night, my jet lag's so bad, so who knows how I'll do staying up past 12 AM. XD

Today was a memorial service for a family friend who died around 3 days ago. They set leis in the water at the beach, a small gathering. I won't say anymore on it, but that it was really sad and I've known her since I was really little, 7 or so, and have a lot of fond memories involving her. God. It's so hard to shake the feeling once you start thinking about it (again and again).

Enough of that. I should have the one fic for a person who's going to be at Fanime this weekend (MORE TIME TO PROCRASTINATE YES I THINK SO) up sometime -- very soon. IF MY JOB SEARCH/APPLICATION ALLOWS, I MEAN. I should've been working on that today. XD At least I have a number of good ones to sift through -- they all want someone who speaks Japanese, for the tourists. Yessss.

I was tagged by sei_kou_ki :D

1. Your name/username.
2. Left-handed or right-handed?
3. Favourite letters to write?
4. Least favourite letters to write?
5. Write 'The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog'.
6. Tag 6 people.

Achtung, achtung: my handwriting is A MESS. I CAN'T WRITE. I DON'T WRITE. I collect notebooks and leave them blank, for serious. XD So -- I'm sorry.

Also, after the meme is my practicing writing a fic with a pen and paper. My mind moves too fast for my hand AUGH so it's crap but enjoy laughing. XD

( ONE NIGHT TO BE CONFUSED. )

Cop-out. Alright. I'm off. XD I don't know what I want -- FOOD. 15 MINUTE NAP. SHOWER. MOVIE. NNGGGKKKK.

WHEN AM I GOING TO POST THIS FIC. I DON'T KNOW. Soon.

I'm back in Hawaii, eating a delicious banana (AND I HAD LAKSA LAST NIGHT) and getting ready to find a job/scholarship essay it up/plan vacationy items. I'm also planning on doing routine visits of all the haunted places on Oahu mentioned in The Obake Files BECAUSE I AM A PARANORMAL GEEK, DON'T JUDGE. I'll take pictures and do nice little posts to stave off boredom here. :D

I, er, actually completely lost it 2 days ago when I was at the airport. You can follow my breakdown and subsequent cursing in a series of ETAs on this post, which I'll keep up because now that I'm not sleep-deprived, stressed, and ill, it's pretty funny. XD

The main point of this post is the startling turn of events:

I'M GOING TO ANIME EXPO. ... :D

YESSSSS THANK GOD. I'll be cosplaying schoolage!Dino, though my true passion lies in taking pictures (and now I have my camera chord back, so I'll send out the pictures from the Matsuri/awesome tea place to those involved!), so I'll probably be doing more of that than anything else. XD And, of course, stalking the utterly awesome LJ people who show up. HUZZAH. My sisters want to do a group Fire Emblem/Smash Brothers cosplay, but young!Dino's been my top priority cosplay for over a year now, so that'll come first. But yeah, HURRAH. I'm going to be there Friday and Saturday, and I'll be in California for about a week. :D And then we're either going to Mexico, Australia, Japan, or San Francisco. ...Or somewhere else. But it'll be out of the country. (Only for another week, though.)

....GOOD TIMES. Back to my wooziness. I HAVE TO MEET UP WITH YOU ALL, OKAY.